It's been 5 days since Brynlee was born. Time has gone by so fast already. I love her more than anything in the whole world. I'm crying as I type this because I can't stand the thought of anything happening to her. Even though she can sure be challenging (especially at night), I wouldn't trade her for anything.
So far Brynlee-
Hates: Anything to do with being naked- baths, diaper changes, and changing clothes
Loves: Food, being swaddled, stretching her arms and legs, her pacifier most of the time, mommy and daddy, and anyone that wants to hold her

When she sneezes, yawns, stretches, makes funny noises,smiles, and especially when she has her eyes open and looking around- I think it's the cutest thing in the whole world.

She spends a lot of time sleeping, but when she's awake I can't stop looking at her.

We have had a really hard time nursing. She has a different problem everyday and what worked the day before won't work the next. Today we went to the lactation specialist. Apparantly she likes an audience because she did just fine there. She also was doing good by the time we left the hospital (after lots of help), but since getting home she won't latch on.

She has smiled a few times and quite a few half smiles that only last a second. But the best was yesterday when she smiled huge for a few seconds when daddy was putting her pink bracelet on. I was glad we both got to see it.

I love dressing her up in her adorable outfits and finding the perfect bow, flower, or headband to go with the outfit.

It still hasn't quite sunk in that she's my baby and I'm not just babysitting.

Everyone comments that she is just adorable and perfect looking. I was seriously worried that she would be ugly and I would be the only one to think she's cute. But I guess that's not true. Sometimes when she pulls a certain face she looks Asian. I thought I was crazy for thinking that, but her doctor said so without me even asking. I'm not sure where she gets that from.

John has been sick since last week with a really bad cold that has turned into a sinus infection. With him feeling miserable and coughing a lot he hasn't been able to do as much with Brynlee. He sleeps in another room so his coughing doesn't wake her up. It's been frustrating for all of us. Hopefully he will get better soon (and not pass it on to anyone).

Life has been complicated with all sorts of baby stuff that doesn't work. First- her carseat had a latch that broke when getting it out of the base-requiring multiple hands to get it out. John fixed it after a day or two and we will be getting a new one. That was a hassle going to the store on sunday, finding out they can't do anything about it, going online then realizing it was bought more than 90 days ago so normally they won't take it back. But it should work out now.

The bottle warmer we bought makes absolutely no sense. The instructions don't tell you how to use it and it's really frustrating when you have a screaming baby and only cold milk.

I hate the special pillow I got for nursing. It was expensive and seems to only get in the way and not help at all.

It seems everyday there is something else I find I need so we have already spent a lot of time out of the house. It feels good to get out and walk around, but not so good on the stitches in the nether regions.

All in all- having a baby is an emotional roller coaster. It's the best thing, but also the hardest thing in the whole world. Of course I've heard that before and I didn't expect it to be easy, but you really can't know how hard until you experience it for yourself.

I'm thankful I have my baby girl here safe and sound and have lots of amazing, supportive family and friends to help out.